I’m stuck. Stuck on the edge of something. I’m almost there, kind of…I just can’t quite get…make…oh, you know what I mean…
Do you ever feel so full of inspiration, so wonderfully on the right path…so close to fulfilling some feeling of being fulfilled yet not quite able to put your finger on it. Not quite able to get yourself over the line? That’s how I’m feeling at the moment…a little stuck.
As soon as I get off pinterest…
Joining up to Pinterest doesn’t help. My goodness. That space is just too much. And all of your wonderful blogs…dear me. I really want to make Monday craft day, cook delightful muffins from nothing but air and a little stevia, dry body brush myself to beautiful, create a visually inspiring work place complete with vision wall in my dark and dreary study, study well being and nutrition, write an e-book, launch a website, paint my nails red, but an orange based red because a blue based red will just make the veins stand out…..I want to take the kids on a beach walk and wear gumboots, I want to move to France for a year, or Italy, or Bali…or Noosa! I want to go to yoga, to make a green smoothie and I want my hair to be longer…now! I’m finding so many things I want to be yet I’m losing who I really am. I’m too much Hare and not enough Tortoise.
Obstacles. There are obstacles. The internet is one of them. Jeesh. The black hole is what we should call it because you just pop online to check your emails and 45 minutes later you are signing up for an e-course in organic gardening! And then there are the children. Do I love them? Fiercely. Would I change my situation? Not in a million years. Would I like a little more time to focus on life beyond the circle of motherhood without being asked for a drink? Yes please…if such a place exists.
Time, money, ability to make a decision. Disapproving looks from partners, cold rainy days, dairy intolerance, housework….the obstacles are plentiful, yet we find a way through. We are good at that. We look down the line, we prepare and we wait. We are patience personified. Because we know it will happen, one day…if we make it happen, one day.
I just need some order, some focus…but how? How do we achieve that? How do we prioritise our goals and our dreams and how do make room in our hectic, busy lives to nurture them and let them grow?
Is it just me? I would love to hear from you…how do you declutter your mind and make room for what is truly important?
Love and light,
mamacino x
NO!!! It is definitely not just you. I feel exactly the same way, frequently. On the cusp of something amazing……….if only I could put all my ideas and visions into action!! Sometimes it really gets me down and I worry that life is passing me by while I am folding the laundry. But other times I feel thrilled and blessed by all the possibilities. We are so so so so lucky. I think it is about being mindful and finding pleasure and joy in the little things as well as actively committing time to sort out our priorities. But I usually feel completely lacking in focus (and constantly find myself simultaneously doing 5 things (badly)). So I’m not sure I’ve got beyond just feeling stuck
Also wanted to say how much I am loving your blog Kristin. So happy to have found you – I am loving your recipes and also make it a very high priority to feed my family well
Thank you and congratulations xx
Thanks Jenny, what a lovely thing to say. I’m glad you are enjoying mamacino. You are right about being mindful and remembering how lucky we are xx
Definitely not just you! I think that our grandmothers were probably jack of all trades in some ways, but then have one or two things that they did really well – bake sponges, garden, paint, knit etc. We expect ourselves to to be able do it all – grow our own veggies, knit the kids jumpers, make gourmet meals, sew, crochet, be well read, well travelled, have a career, home business, be studying .. you know what I mean… we can’t be good at everything. Or do everything. Especially at once.
It’s definitely good to think about what’s “nice” and what is part of who I really am when looking at things like pinterest.
I really tune into my bare minimum and work up from there – healthy, balanced meals and exercise at the top of the list. The right balance between activity and rest, keeping home feeling like a place I can relax. The rest comes after that. I think its good to prioritise a few things each year that will challenge and inspire. x
You are right Lee, we can’t do everything all at once…our grandmothers also didn’t have the internet to consume so much of their time! I’m thinking of setting some serious boundaries as to how much time I spend online!
I allot one day for all the distractions. I watch my TV shows, read blogs, ponder about my foot – all in one day! Then the next day, it’s productivity day; the day I make myself closer to my dreams. I think it’s a balance
Well, from my own personal experiences and also my work as a life Coach, let me say that I totally understand where you’re coming from. First of all, congratulations for putting it out there. Just the fact that you’re looking for something more is a big sign that you’re actually going to get it.
Might I suggest doing some journaling? Start the day with 5 min. of writing whatever’s in your head. Just get it out there. That can clear out the clutter. Then play with some of these questions: if I had no limitations what would I do? If I only had 10 years left to live what would I do? What kind of legacy do I want to leave behind me? If I had all the money I could ever need, what would I do with my time? What are my top priorities? What are three small changes I can make in the next month to be closer to these?
I think and write about this kind of stuff all the time, so feel free to stop by and say hi on http://www.mariewetmore.com (that’s my corner of the Internet).
Thank you, I will x
Loved this post and sorry if I convinced you that Pinterest was the way to go
It is like a dream board isn’t it. With an incredible wealth of possibilities in every direction. And some days your just tired…or stuck…but the next you get moving. Step one is finding a dream and if you can do that you are already ahead of the race.
Oh Kristin, I totally get this post. On so many levels. You are not alone, my friend! I feel a little guilty for encouraging you to join Pinterest as well ☺. I am going to buy an egg timer to limit the amount of time I spend online. Let’s see how I go! J x
No Jane, I did it all by myself! Lol, no, I actually enjoy it but it certainly is blurring the lines between my wants and needs x